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I dun even know myself...

Hi blog...feeling a little down today...cause my results sucks...i mean those i studied, i fail oh pass marginally...the subject i didn't study scored the highest...makes me feel damn lame lar...it's just like my studying was quite useless...haix...haha..and my GP also fail...it's damn sian lor...haix...i just can't seem to make my GP results better...i have been trying to read more liao lor...still cannot...haix...prelims coming in around a month time...haix...hope to pass GP then...

Haha...but still good news from one of my mei mei Yeeling...erm...those who know her go ask her why lar...i shouldn't advertise for her...feels quite happy to did something nice for them...anyway, now still got Sharon...haha...can create scandals for her...heard she is interested in someone liao...haha...shall wait and see....this guy in my junior class is an author of a poems and stories collection book...haha...he feels quite talented...read his compo...quite nice and sentimental...or rather emotional...but then, his hand writting sucks...Zhi Ping...improve your hand writting...he reminds me of my team mate Jun Yuan...an LEP student too...with illegible hand writing...haha...

Erm...some news from NS...dunno good news or not...but we shall see when the actual thing is confirmed....

Hi blog, haha...m happy today...today went to nj fun fair...though there is some slight misconception...still, got to visit NJ with my friend...anyway, meet alot of old friends...some attached, some single...but then, i really miss the good old days at The Chinese High School...we guys rock k...anyway, erm...it's quite fun there lar...there was this dunking game...where u throw a ball at a target to dunk someone into water...i missed...haha...then couldn't dunk my friend Chun Lei into wat...Terence missed also k...yup...hmm....feels guilty to dunk him..haha...

Anyway, saw my two juniors haha...erm...shouldn't say their name, but then...erm...feel happy for them...really happy...God bless them...i wish them the best too...then i went moving around Plaza Singapura...it's one of my favourite hangout, although i usually dun, but if i do, i will probably go there...haha...anyway, the Swensen there is the Hwa Chong wushu hangout too....haha...

Erm...had a great day today...really....

Oh ya...remembered the other day in CT session, i was a little pissed off lar...cause the situation was like i m a more conservative guy...not as direct one...and my class, especially the girls, always say those sexual stuff haha...it's quite funny, i dun shun them, but i always say, "dun be digusting" in chinese lar...it has became a habit of my...then it was like my friends were talking about it beside me lar...i didn't listen to it but when i turned over i sort of knew wat they were saying...them, it's was like one of them was so scarcastic as to bad mouth me....i was immediately pissed off lar...i mean, as my friend, which i always regard you as one...if you are not happy with the way i m, u can tell me directly rite....or if you dun want me to know, just say it behind my back so that it wouldn't spoil my image of you as a friend rite...it's like he was saying beside me lor...and loud...obviously he was trying to tell me...and so scarcastic...it's really feels like hypocrisy to me lar...i hate hypocrites...and worst of all...i cannot just scold him lar cause i still treat him as my friend...i immediately told him off lar...wat would you feel like if it is you? And that silly girl who probably will be reading my blog still laugh with him...

Personally....i think it's really insensitive of one to do that...so guys and girls out there, if you feel that your friend got some mistakes or wat if you dun really like, please tell them...i mean, friends should always trust each other...and they will change if it is something bad, or else, it's just them, and you should accept them rite? Please dun backstab your friends...it really breaks the trust in them...believe me, cause i know...

I m not that petty lar...but it's just that as my good friend, it just hurts a little to see them like that...cause it shook the bridge that we built together through all the laughter and tears...anyway, should just see how the river continue to flow...but believe me, u dun feel good when your friends do that to you...if it's just some nobody, who the heck cares...but since you are my good friend, it feels weird...r u still there? Guess i may be a little sensitive...but then, think again..i remember wat my classmate daniel wrote...little ripples in the start,mighty waves at the end...think about it....

Hmm...read about the details of my personality analysis...really quite true k...yup yup...hmm...

Anyway, Sat was wushu investiture...hmm...it's the official handover from the 29th batch to the 30th batch...hmm...i thought it would be quite sad and touching, being reminded of the old times where we would train until the exhaustion of the our last energy together...hmm...i m constantly reminded of the times, we laugh and cried together as a team haha...of course and when we eat together at the club room ( the pig association...we are the pig alumni now...haha)...all the times of intensive 400m track rush and hill slope dashing...of course, not forgeting the "short run" we had from Hwa Chong to mgs and to St Margere then back....haha...it's really fun...

Sadly, it's time we all need to say goodbye to the good old days, hmm...we can return, but it feels different...hmm...no monstrous trainer (GARY) around to force us to train...however, all the sweat, blood and tears will always be on my mind forever....the Hwa Chong wushu team rocks man...haha...we created lots of miracles and good memories...and we did the team proud...haha...

Really hope the juniors would continue our legacy and do the team proud...i m quite confident of them...ya...hmm...but then, the investiture had a real "cold" performance...haix...my juniors...anyway, in the end, we all had fun...i had to leave early, so sad...but then, i will always be back to support the team....

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Oh ya...this is quite a nice site to check out your personality...quite true k...yup...try it people...maybe you will understand yourself better...hmm....yup....

Haha...i represent kindness...haha...good joke...i always have this mindset that i should be evil...a little evil...yup...you need to be so to prevent people from bullying you and protect yourself...and you can also protect your friends...of course, one needs to be kind and friendly, but then, true pure kind people...dun ask me to be one...we are living in the real world dear, you need to fight in every aspect of your life...to be kind to all is to be kind to your enermy and cruel to yourself...yup...
But...i totally agree that we should always help people if we can...it really makes you feel great...think for yourself when was the last time you did something kind to help others? If it's a LONG TIME AGO...go reflect on your life...


You represent... kindness.
You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual.
You truely care about people and are generally
well-liked. Though sometimes you may be
perceived as weak, you truely have a strong
heart and a good desire to help others.


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Ok...feeling better today...thanks to all my friends out there...always there for me...giving me support when i m down...yup...thanks...anyway, today, someone was saying about blog being a personal thing and shouldn't be spread, unless your identity is confidential...

Yes, personally, i do agree with it, some blogs are confidential...people wanna write out their inner secrets without others knowing...if u spread your blog, you will have constrains when writing and blah blah blah...for those people out there thay can keep their blog private...

But then, for people like me, my blog is just a past time for me to crap and vent my feelings only, i can assure you i have no secrets to say here. I mean, i am a clear person, i do not have anything to hide from people...if i have secrets, it would mean that i wouldn't be sharing with anyone, and i wouldn't even think of writing it down...your diary can also be intruded by people too k...yup, if i write anything here, i would write base on what i feel...i don't write for people to see...so if you don't wanna read about my life, STAY CLEAR OF MY BLOG...this blog, is for my friends who wish to find out more about what i m thinking and what's my life like...dun read my blog and complain about what i say in my blog...

Personally, i feel that people have alot of feelings that he or she would probably like others to know about it but lack of the courage to say it out directly, like what i did to thank my friends...i think i probably wouldn't be able to sincerely thank them although they do brightened up my life...but the blog does the job, no mushy speeches...and if you feel sad like i do, i say it, and it feels better, cause your good friends would understand what you feel and would give you the support and courage to move on in life when you feel down...no one would be able to really guess how you feel if you dun say it and if you dun really wanna say it out, blog it...it helps...

And when i complain about something, i have no fear for any consequences for it cause i dun regret my actions...so even if i complained about you and you read it, i wouldn't mind you getting angry cause this IS what i feel...

This is me...and this is my blog...you dun control what i feel and what i wanna say....

Dear blog, i still feel sad and sian lar...will get melancholia if this continue lor....ha...actually, a little lost instead...cause dunno what to do and what will happen...anyway, dun really wanna bother about it liao lar...i have always been a happy go lucky person...just suddenly really feel a little tired to smile...but then, i did tried to smile at the beach yesterday rite, it feels a little strange...haix...and now, even my good friends are feeling sad with their problems too...and even the two brave Iran twins died today....how can i not feel sad?

Dun wanna sound so depressing...yup...anyway, will be fine...soon...soon...

I realise no one really see the guest book at the bottom of my page, so i added a link at the top...leave a message or two if you guys want to...yup...i...will check it asap...thanks....it's a guest map...i found it quite unique...

Dear Blog, i still feel sad and sian.....despite having abit of fun with my friends today at Sentosa...we played lots of stuff...beach volleyball, blading, cycling and then, more volleyball and touch rugby...but then, still got this melancholy mood in my mind lar...sian...haix...anyway, i always think that people should communicate effectively to work lor...so we should always talk about our problem lar...dun keep it and continue to be sad or angry...no one can guess wat u are thinking rite? Unless two people have some pyschic bonding or wat, no one can really guess wat others are thinking and in the end, misunderstanding and problems occur...shouldn't talk more...feel sian...sleeping...

Dear Blog, i feel damn sian and sad now lar...it has been quite a day for me, feeling like that the whole day...well, sometimes i just hate it when people dun understand me...especially when someone malign me...i hate it lor...butthen, i always consider myself to be unique...people wouldn't be able to understand me easily...haix...

Firstly, some good friends that understand me better are all not around me...in other junior colleges...yup...i really miss them...then there are friends now who only see the surface of me...well, what you expect, they are not any of my kins or wat rite...that i know, but i do hope people understand me...yup...have some good friends, probably know me better, but then, who knows...and they have their own problems anyway...haix...

And now, even my family dun understand me sometimes...and then worst, someone important thinks that i dun prioritise her, when i always put her in first place...haix...what can i say?

All i ask for is someone that really understands me well, a nice and good friend that i can always trust and depend on...is that too much? I guess even hoping was really hoping against the odds.....

But i know that God has already been nice to me, with a nice family...haix...guess i shouldn't ask for more for some people are worst than me...thank you God...and for that, i shall continue smiling and bring joy and laughter to the world, helping the world to become a slightly better place within my means...

To those who found a bosom friend, treasure them well and may your friendship last forever...

Hey...today is the first day after block test ended...didn't do much, just went to meet my juniors and celebrate my senior's birthday...they were playing with cream, which i intelligently avoided....

Yesterday, went to movie with some clasmates...we watched The Twins Effect...personally i think the fighting scenes are not bad, but the plot could have been better...yup...but some of my friends dissent with me...yup...then we played pool yup, this good friend of my gabriel is damn pro at pool..haha..didn't play with him cause i will be trashed by him...

Talking about him, he is a nice and certainly, quite good looking guy...haha...knew him in a basketball game...haha...he is attached, no more chances for other girls out there :P...then i went to look for gifts for my sister...gab came along, it's my sister 's birthday, i bought a necklace...with a stained glass pendent...it's quite nice...we met maria and yi xin...haha...then i went back to meridian to eat and had a nice talk with maria...yup...haha...shared secrets...haha...anyway, then i went home alone and sleep...quite tired...

Haha...just talking to my juniors about love and romance...the two of them actually have a scandal with one another...

If you had a crush on one of your friend, would you tell him or her? I mean, if you tell her, something might happen, sparks and maybe it will turn out good...however, it may also become uncontrollable...friends become strangers....nevertheless, if you never express how you feel, no one will never know...people can say "no" but deep down in their heart, they actually say "yes"...that's the sad thing in life...people dun really say wat they feel...and as a result, people become really hypocritical...these people are really sad cases...they have to be behind a mask always...not their true self at all...i mean, u can lie to every single soul in the world except your heart...in the end, only you would be the one to lose out....having regrets in life....

So, say it when you like someone, or else, you will be the only one to regret in life, even if it didn't turn out well, at least you tried to make your dream come true...yup...God Bless You....

Thank you zhen for praising me...haha...i am not that good lar...and it has been good to have many friends along my life, to accompany me along the river of life...ya....many good friends, who i know would be there for me if i fall and would be there for me if i cry...one can have no regrets in life knowing them yup...perhaps down in my heart and character, i have grown to become like a part of you guys...i would never have been what i am today without you people...

If i were to mention all, i would probably be typing even till next week...there are simply too many of you guys out there i wish to thank...even if you may not know, but i am real grateful of you...

I always think that life is unfair...some people are much more unfortunate to others...there are people in third world countries suffering and starving every single day while many better off are wasting food every single meal...glad to say that i am a more fortunate one...in a better home, great family and best of all, have a batch of cute, sweet and funky friends beside me...

Just wanna say thank you to all my friends out there...even if you have help me or not, your presence have made my life brighter, better and happier...thank you...

Ok, just to mention a few...my secondary school classmates like, Ying Feng, Zhifa, Chee Yu, Justin, Chang Loong, Chun Lei, Fu Xiang...thanks for all the bridge games, basketball and lame times when we hang out together...they are good memories, always in my heart...

Haha, my JC classmates...

Terence...you aren't that fat actually...haha....ok, you do rock sometimes lar...

Maria...erm... you are going to blend into your shadows liao lor...and muscles dun shrink...they sag...

Ming Zhen...you are always talking about disgusting stuff but hey, you are still the nice and sweet you...

Yi Xin...always cute and short...152cm...haha...but then, that's what denims are attracted to rite...

Li Rui...always COLD but hey, it's great laughing with you around...just VERY COLD...

Mei Hua...you are sweet and nice, but you must smile more...you always got this worried and troubled face...

Sherwayn...you all your intellectual cold stuff...i dun understand...but hey, it's nice knowing you...

Melissa...Shu Yan, u are really a nice and sweet friend...yup...think i really forgot your friend's phone no....

Su Ching...haha...rabbit, nice and sweet girl...too bad hang around construction sites only...

Zhi Ming...always got this funny and blur smile on his face...but then, he can shake his butt rite Mei Hua...

Hey...i will have to include the whole class liao...got to stop now to study...tmr still have maths test...other people like my meimei...Sharon, Michelle and Yeeling i said before liao...and that idiot Qi fan...he is quite nice actually...will be praying for you and you know who...

For those not mentioned, i didn't forget you...just that i got no time...should study liao...oh ya...
Vernon...haha...you have been one cool and nice friend, i have known you for 8 to 9 years...yup, you are real nice though...yup...heard alot of people have crush on you k...haha...yes...i am jealous