Your Smile . My Life
Prelude

Self-denial is a game
so strange i never would've
wanted till there was you.
cause i have learned that love is beyond
what human can imagine,
the more it clears the more i have to let you go.

On vacation


A loner.
A devil.
A pessimist.
A contradictor.


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Ching
Wei Xi
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Welcome to My Life
Do you know me?
Are you sure you know me?
I dun even know myself...

日曜日, 6月 29, 2008
Haven seen my sec sch friends to play basketball for so so so long...finally saw thme today...usual basketball game and playing bridge...lol...AGAIN..at the same canteen where we always got caught playing cards...haha...it has been 10 years already...can u believe it?

10 YEARS!

Haha....sounds so old le rite me...haha...

Feel so bliss to be holding u in my arms and just doing nothing.
Please stop the time for a moment longer with u.
Just alittle while longer.
Onegai.=(

火曜日, 6月 24, 2008
I think i am like falling sick..losing appetite and with weird stomach reactions...haix...

I am starting to dread going to work, because it has become so boring and mundane, plus i m doing so redundant job...haix...the only source of entertainment is my msn mass chat session...lol...=)

Anyway, I am like feeling the fatigue of repeated trainings and work on my body now...feel so easily tired...

I miss my darling so much right here right now...=(( Kind of sad yet amazing how the same place that has all the great memories with u before would suddenly turn so depressing just cause u are not around. U really brighten up my days so much with ur msg in the early morning blues of work. =))) Thanks LOVE.

I wonder why people tend to delete their blogs once they have a conflict with someone. When u blog, u blog for urself, and not anyone. These are just how u feel, and wat u wanto say. Yes people do read them, but it's a choice for them. If they dislike u, they can dun read ur blog, if they read and wanto comment, just ignore them.

It's like "This is my life right why should u decide where I should or shouldn't go?"

Deleting your blog doesnt solve anything actually. It just tells people that you are uneasy and u are responding to their call against u.

On the other hand, its a form of hiding back to your own cave, because u dun want any comments or any external influences. U wanto isolate urself.

I guess at the end of the day, it's how u wanto face the music. Whether u wanto brace urself against it (deleting blogs doesnt remove u from the topic of the day) or avoid it temporary. U can avoid it for the moment, but not forever. =)

水曜日, 6月 18, 2008
Haven been blogging for a while...
Life's been great. Been running thru the week with PA at Goldin Enterprise and Aces training at night, so the week has been pretty fast. This is already the 6 week. Since we are going Thailand on the 14th, it would be 3 more weeks plus before PA ends.
Been training on a few stunts, but I still wanna train up my backhandspring as fast as possible...haix...=(
*All the the while, thank you for my darling for always been with me, always concern and sweet beside me thru anything I do. Thanks dear! You are the best and sweetest! =)* Shhhh...all the romantic things I do for U are for U only...dun tell others k...it's our little secret. =)
On a sidenote, Aces Photo shoot sample for dunno wat event, I realise there are some really nice shots like:

Xuewei! My ever cute GL and Hall Queen. Too bad cant see her abs here...haha =)

And I didnt expect to see the Mr Photogenic, who's much more photogenic than even Yirong, Neville!!!


Yang Guang Nan Hai Sia...lol..=)

Pretty nice pictures...waiting to see more of them =)

If u are very free....you can go flip Cleo magazines for the freshlook contest and vote my friend Lee Yirong for it...=) She say she's weird in the magazine...I dunno...=) Well I dun really care lar...haha...i mean i have tons of photos of me looking so weird, wat's one compare to my many...lol....so if u are too free can help ok?


木曜日, 6月 12, 2008
I am sorry dear.

I know you are very disappointed with me suddenly having trainings on Sat but I promise I would keep my promise to accompany u on Sat always yah?
Just that it would be later.

Sorry Sorry Sorry.

I know a million apology couldnt help.

=(

火曜日, 6月 10, 2008
Shit....chatted with Shu Pei a hall senior until damn late...tmr still has PA.

Today's training was interesting..so many people...makes the whole place fun and lively. I admit that I am a very team focused person, that makes me sad when reality strikes that not everyone's gonna be competing together in the same Aces Team. =(

No matter how much sweat and hardwork we have all put in together, there bound to be a time when the line's got to be draw and reality strikes in, and everyone's not gonna be competiting together because of the 16 person limit. I like what gou gou said, about knowing that we compete for those who couldnt have the chance to be on the mat, be I just couldnt help feeling sad suddenly, even though I already expected this.

I guess it's really useless to think about that lar...gotta work on my gymnast



P.S. Dear I miss you. =(

土曜日, 6月 07, 2008
Why didnt u tell me that something scary happened to u...=(
I told u I am here for you already..believe in me.

Why do I keep feeling that you are losing confidence in me, when there's already nothing I can do? =(

金曜日, 6月 06, 2008
I realise there are full of drama's after drama in everything around me and involving me...life's really VERY interesting...

Anyway, my results this sem's super cui and damn sucky...haix...I know I have alot of activities, from 4 IHG games to 2 ISG, then HO Cheerleading, HC Dance, Cheerobics Aces Team B and concurrently being JCRC Fin and also double spec, but I have been telling myself to prove that despite all these you can get the best result, because diamonds are only made under pressure...well disappointing and agonizing...at last I still failed...haix...

=(

At least, one good thing happened, that's my double spec got B+!!! AMAZING...haha...I didn't expected it lar...it's like...hmmm...I got at least 70 marks is all not confident and never completed part questions. =)

I guess I just have to work much harder next sem with no more hall stuff and only studying...of course with Aces lar...

Btw...i still think the F Cup Cookie is damn interesting...it's supposed to be a bust enhacing cookie from Japan...it's like wtf rite...haha...i know wat u mean...haha...i felt the same way when I first heard it...go google for for it...there's f-cup-cookie.com also lor...haha...I can IMAGINE SOMEONE I KNOW VERY WELL that might be interested in..hahahaha...=)

Lastly, so happy to see my dear today! =) I miss you so much. =) I know I have always been bad tempered, impatient, fierce and loads and loads of flaws...thank you for tolerating me and loving me and always caring for me. =)

Now to my next target of round off backhandspring and backtuck...haha...

水曜日, 6月 04, 2008
I really really really dunno wat I can do to make u feel better.
You just dun understand that you have been the greatest and dearest to me.
I dunno wat to say anymore. =(

Open arms - Journey
Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heart with mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are
By my side

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms

Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home

But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms

日曜日, 6月 01, 2008
It's SUPER sweet and cute.

Thanks, it will keep me company every night in hall =)