It's all in the act.

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Do you know me?
Are you sure you know me?
I dun even know myself...

土曜日, 5月 22, 2004

I m back from field camp....=P

Anyway, field camp was a good experience for me...really really good...and i believe i learnt lots of things during field camp...

I discovered that encouragement works wonders...

Ex tenderfoot was a good example to use...during that exercise, my section was on a rather bad condition....4 in my section was running a fever, including me while others are also in a bad condition...but we really really endured on and on...all the distances we covered...we were the first to complete the day topography and 1st to come back together with platoon 3 section 3(i m platoon 3 section 1)....we had to bash through a very thick forest, which i was the basher in front about nearly 45 minutes....we had to encourage each other and push each other on the way to finally succeed...

In case u dun believe me, the next day, 4 of us fall out after the morning section training...with one heat cramp and three high fever...ok, i was one of them...

I dunno why but it feels like always our ection have people falling out...but we really are one of the fittest around...that really really puzzle me...perhaps our instructor is really too demanding...i dunno cause i was never under another instructor before...

And i think my instrutor needs to be more encouraging and understanding...the point is that he doesnt trust us...and he doesnt understand us well...although he is a nice guy, he needs more than that to be a good instructor...

And all instructors should be more understanding...and be able to control their temper more...

I m back...with a new leash of life, but really tired now...

To Daniel Seah: hey you are back too...haha...anyway, i think i can work out wat u mean, but i guess, it meant to be so...i m sorry but i guess things dun work out that well as wat i want...

日曜日, 5月 16, 2004

I just wanna say that pls dun read my blog and question my thoughts...i hate that...i wanna blog wat i want and i will always do so...you are deterring me from doing so...u know who u are...if you wanna read my blog, just read it...but dun question wat i state...i wouldn't answer to it...

If you really know me, u wouldn't have to read my blog to read my tots...

I am really busy, not avoiding you...we are always friends if u believe in me...that's all i have to say...

To Michelle: Dear Xiaomei...thank you...your kor is fine...yup...sad lar...but ok...will be fine so...talk to you again after field camp...miss ya loads k =P

Hey it's me back to blog again...haix...

Field camp on Monday, justy recovered from a high fever from friday after rapelling...it was really fun...just that my hips hurt totally...

Come to think of it...this love was like a sunset to me...short and sweet...i love the sunset...totally...but it ended so suddenly and i dunno wat to do...nevermind...i dunno wat to say...i guess i should stop thinking about it now...forgive my cruelty but i guess we got to move on in life...all the smile and laughter these days make me feel so fake in camp...i hate myself...

Sad sad sad...

It's just like wat my blog title says...

Shouldn't compare cause i know someone has a worst relationship than me...haix...

U know who u are...if u are reading this, i will be with u k...dun worry...things will be find soon...it got to be over lar...

日曜日, 5月 09, 2004

I have nothing to say...wish u happiness always...

日曜日, 5月 02, 2004

I feel lost....real lost....

........

Something's on my mind but i just cant figure out wat izzit...i really really dunno wat to say to you...

Anyway, i dunno why i feel that way also...
Perhaps i m too stressed up or i m really tired...

I dunno wat to type or say at all now...

I stone around, just staring into blank....cant seems to concentrate...yet i have to...got to go back to camp liao...and i m the newly appointed CWSM...which make things worst and make me more frustrated....

I got no one to talk to...or should i say i got no one i feel like talking to...and i m feeling quite down now...now with parents scolding u, girl friend not understanding you, and instructors always ready to scold and confine you...wat would u do....

Just find a place to sit down and rest to watch TV?
Too bad, even my TV is spoilt...and i m sick now...

I dunno wat to say if u dun understand me...dun feel like saying much anymore...continue to interpret it your way, for i m tired of explaining everything around...i need a break from all troubles to recover physically, mentally and emotionally....

土曜日, 5月 01, 2004

Currently listening to this song...it emits a strong sad and depressing feeling like wat i m feeling now...sucks...

First of May
Bee Gees

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
we used to love while others used to play.
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
someone else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
and you don't ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
but guess we'll cry come first of May.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
the day I kissed your cheek and you were gone.
Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
and you don't ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
but guess we'll cry come first of May.

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
do do do do do do do do do...
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
someone else moved in from far away.

Anyway....i m out of camp...finally...

Just wanna say that i really really really dunno why u are angry with me or why u are sad...i really dunno wat u want...u can tell me and we try to solve it, or u can keep to urself and forget it...i dun understnad why u wanna give up so easily...

I m already quite stressed out by lots of tekan sessions and the new appointment i have in camp and now this...can't u just be more understanding? Thats the only thing i need lar.............