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I dun even know myself...
金曜日, 12月 31, 2004
In about two hours time i will be on my way back to camp.....why? cause my wsm so guai lan....ask us to book in today for guard duty tmr...
That will be how i will get the new year rolling.....prowling around Sungei Gedong Camp.....haix.....
I refuse to accept this reality.......
Days are so lonely now for me....ha.....i mean boring....everyone got boyfriend, girlfriend to be.....and all ultra busy to entertain me.....i realise i need more friends........haix.......
I watched Kungfu Hustle today with my tankees.....ha......it's quite interesting, but i didnt laugh as much as shaolin soccer....i think that was better....this is more cold....and not really really funny lar...but Stephan Chow is the best already lar...he's like my idol...funny and lame......i have been watching his movie since young....ha...and i love them...suits me rite....
Go count down and have fun guys, while i will be so sad case in camp....
月曜日, 12月 27, 2004
Ok...it's so late now...why arent i asleep...
I guess i m a little out of my mind now...ha...playing a little childish game...i actually dun wanna sleep cause i know when i wake up, i have to face a new day...with the night to book into camp...i kind of hate that place now...it's so...unfriendly and cold...and full of "dark" people, scheming ones...all around...i cant help but feel that i do not have anyone inside that i can truely relate to, talk my heart out....ok i have, but they are from AIs....so i practically dun see them and talk to them as frequent....
haix...as the day goes by, i can no longer wait to get out of that horrible place in one piece....
Christmas is nothing for me.
I practically slept through christmas eve and christmas....sounds so no life rite...come on lar, i dun have a girlfriend now, and i have a very busy ns life...how to find....and my social circle is like stationary now...i pity myself for that, but it's fine lar....maybe i feel lonely at times....esp when like you should have a girlfriend to accompany you through your ns life lar( it's so bored facing all guys daily rite...)...but i forbide myslef to feel so...cause i hate people who pity themselves and i dun wanna fall into the same cage... but i m not despo lar...i m just waiting for somebody...
When i heard she is back, i was quite happy lar...but then, i receive this sms from her overseas phone on the 24th, i think she went back le....she came back without looking for me lar....i was really disappointed lar...really...dunno why...i tot she would want to see me lar...apparently she is gone again..."left in the rain without closing the door".... doesnt she feels that i would wish to see her?....
I didnt feel good about this holiday since then...
Well, i dunno why, but i guess, she grew to be an important part of my life...
土曜日, 12月 18, 2004
15th of December
Annex of Full Troop Exercise
My finale for my Pro term training in armour...
I didnt do well in that lar...as a 14 commander...hard to explain...i was following orders...some very unclear orders...in the end, i ganna scolded again...i realise that i am always misunderstood by people...i hate that...when would there be a day where i would find someone around me that understand me well......haix...
Anyway, alot of things happen...alot of commotion in camp...just a conclusion that alot of things in life are not done above the table....well i got nothing to say about that lar....
I just feel that i need to get out of that place asap...i hate it.........
Someone just give me the power to carry on...
土曜日, 12月 04, 2004
Ha...one more final exercise to go before commissioning..
Quite disappointed that i have not did well in the course, well we have no very capable guys, yet i....haix...
Anyway, one more Full Troop Exercise before my commissioning...ha...
I am getting so sick of the army...worst still, tmr i will be confined, or rather today 2300...then after that, 11th i got guard duty and on the 24th of December Christmas Eve i got school orderly...very good....
I bet it's cause my WSM dun like me lar...then put me and Stamford as school orderly...and he didn't like stamford lar...ha...
But then, tmr i get to see my xiaomei Michelle...so so so long never see her liao...ha...quite happy to see her...
Jia You...
I feel so isolated these days, everyone like ignore me lar when i msg them...cause all holiday got alot of people to be with and play while i stuck in camp lar....evil...poor me...