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月曜日, 12月 27, 2004
Ok...it's so late now...why arent i asleep...
I guess i m a little out of my mind now...ha...playing a little childish game...i actually dun wanna sleep cause i know when i wake up, i have to face a new day...with the night to book into camp...i kind of hate that place now...it's so...unfriendly and cold...and full of "dark" people, scheming ones...all around...i cant help but feel that i do not have anyone inside that i can truely relate to, talk my heart out....ok i have, but they are from AIs....so i practically dun see them and talk to them as frequent....
haix...as the day goes by, i can no longer wait to get out of that horrible place in one piece....
Christmas is nothing for me.
I practically slept through christmas eve and christmas....sounds so no life rite...come on lar, i dun have a girlfriend now, and i have a very busy ns life...how to find....and my social circle is like stationary now...i pity myself for that, but it's fine lar....maybe i feel lonely at times....esp when like you should have a girlfriend to accompany you through your ns life lar( it's so bored facing all guys daily rite...)...but i forbide myslef to feel so...cause i hate people who pity themselves and i dun wanna fall into the same cage... but i m not despo lar...i m just waiting for somebody...
When i heard she is back, i was quite happy lar...but then, i receive this sms from her overseas phone on the 24th, i think she went back le....she came back without looking for me lar....i was really disappointed lar...really...dunno why...i tot she would want to see me lar...apparently she is gone again..."left in the rain without closing the door".... doesnt she feels that i would wish to see her?....
I didnt feel good about this holiday since then...
Well, i dunno why, but i guess, she grew to be an important part of my life...