Welcome to My Life
Do you know me?Are you sure you know me?
I dun even know myself...
日曜日, 2月 27, 2005
Just finished my first BDO duty....it's quite a good learning experience lar....being the highest rank around...feels strange...a little uneasy and uncomfortable...people look up to you or expect something from you...i am ok...just a little uneasy and not used to it lar...Today i just stoned the whole sunday away...i dunno where to go play or even who i want to ask to go out....no one in mind....so i just stoned and sleep lar....
Argh....still need to authenticate my tkd card....
土曜日, 2月 26, 2005
So...tmr will be my BDO duty...my first one..and on my first weekend...that stupid Chong Hian...anyway, i didn't feel too bad lar...dunno why, maybe cause i dunno wat i am supposed to do outside camp...well at least in camp as an officer, i know i have a duty to look after my men...at home i simply lay down on the floor and watch TV...Today kelvin and seah kw ran SOC...haha...top two sia...ha...they still so powerful...
My sister got her driving license le...haha...congrates...she wanted that for very long le lar...
Monday going to be kelvin's SOC test neutral...
The newe AOCC cadets are here...it feels strange to see them, like curious in a strange state of mind...like they are the backwave of the sea forcing us the forward way to move off...move on in life...telling me that hey, now OTW is ours, not yours...
And so, my rose in the wind left silently and quietly...with the last reply at 4.07pm "I am still packing my stuff"...=P
I am still smiling...i think so...
木曜日, 2月 24, 2005
Yeah...currently attached HQ S2 Branch...S2 in India and DyS2 on course...so practically, when this Lta who is going to ORD not around, i have the biggest rank there...today, me and darius(another friend same as my posting now in S2) just floated around...we wanted to do something but had nothing to do...so we stayed in the office to chat...mingle with the specs and man...quite interesting lar...like colleagues...quite fun to talk lar...but still have nothing to do...so the two officers resorted to helping the man make the mould for the sand model...haix...Next week S2 will be back, so i shall enjoy while can...
Today had my first ARR training...quite tired lar...ran relay style 8 * 800m in pairs...so me and Jaime ran together...we came in surprisingly first...ha...jaime had the great speed lar...i just maintain lor...bite my teeth and maintain...haha...but it was really tiring...surprisingly i didn't do too bad lar...cause it's like my first round was 3.02 for 800 lar..cause stupid darius ran in 2min plus lar...hope i dun shag out too fast lar...damn tired le...Friday still need to run...
DO duty on Sat..hope i dun screw up...
In the end i didn't took leave...so i shall close my ends and use my heart to bide her goodbye...like a rose in the wind, beautiful and charming but never to be able to have...so near yet so far away...
火曜日, 2月 22, 2005
Today i will be going to my unit leh....later....got quite alot of stuff to bring lar....sian sian sian...So i have the recurring feeling again...similar one i always have....this feeling of not wanting to sleep cause i know when i wake up, the day is gone...and the new day is here...i hate thiz feeling...
I expect the worst in the unit already, but its just that this sense of reluctency...i wonder why is this so...argh.....
I HATE THIS FEELING...been hating so much things these days....argh...like PMS like that...when will all these stupid trouble end....
So i started learning JAP on my own le...some CD and book....next stepp is to go do community service.....
And i wanted to take leave to send someone off...but decided not to lar...it's not cause i dun wanna wast leave or lazy or wat...simple...i ask her if she wants me to go send her off...so she said she is not keen to see me there...
月曜日, 2月 21, 2005
Last day of stay out.....i am so sad...haix...Getting alittle lazy leh lar...
All this studing things are getting onto my nerves...argh....
I actually only considered SMU...
Then i gradually felt that SMU quite unsuitable for me...like the people there all very fashion show...really not my type and very uncomfortable...then i tot about NUS...but NUS is like 4 years for a single degree...not even an additional minor lar...not really worth it....
I never considered NTU before...but then got a good friend in NTU...he made me tot about it...i guess i was just a bit baised...i always see NTU business school as a little "inferior" to the others...guess i was a little wrong lar...it seems quite good leh...3 years direct honours...can specialise in another major and a least a minor...
So now i m torn...i know i very indecisive...dunno why, i just cant decided...argh....
金曜日, 2月 18, 2005
Just read this comic...Ok it may be a comic lar...but it's quite sad lar...
It's about this group of friends....very good friends...they buried a time capsule to be open in 5 years time and all gone into seperate ways...
5 years later, all of them met up cause one of the girl committed suicide...
Then two other girls in the group also died during their gathering...
In the end, it was found out that actually the murderer was actually one of the guys in the group who was a couple with the girl who commmitted suicide...
The last part when they open the time capsule was quite emotional lar...comic wat, so got this photo beside the time capsule of the 8 friends, but now only left the 4 of them digging up the thing...
Like the girl who committed suicide was a quiet artist then they had sketches of the individual friends smiling blissfully...
I dunno wat to say lar...just that it's quite touching lar...first comic i read that actually touches me...
Currently on my playlist:
Li Sheng Jie - Chi Xing Jue Dui
Li sheng Jie - Shou Fang Kai
Adios...
日曜日, 2月 13, 2005
Super super sian...Been down with this stupid flu from chu xi till now...freak...miserable...i cant even taste food well...running nose, gastric flu together....argh......
And worst of all, today i made a terrible mistake...wrote some letter too late into the night...i fell asleep without my phone alarm...as a result...i couldnt wake up in till to send my good friend off...i m really sad when i woke up to see 8.40am on my watch...her plane flies off at 9.00am...i m freakin failure lar...my good friend leaving yet i fail to send her off...haix...argh....
I HATE MYSELF....
月曜日, 2月 07, 2005
Uploaded two photos...
Daniel and me during comms ball...yup...he's my classmate...abit eccentric...but then generally a nice guy lar...hor mingzhen.....
That's me and William my good friend...just commissioned....he is a navy officer while i m from Armour...ha...handsome sia....abit bhb....oh well...
日曜日, 2月 06, 2005
Listening to so many sentimental songs...so so so many....
All telling the same story...
Waiting for someone...then you finally felt tired and gave up...when the girl finally realise it, it is too late....
I have that experience one...but i didnt let the girl know....lucky girl huh....ha...well i just stayed by her side...so close...but finally...i gave her up...maybe she will find someone better than me...maybe she wouldnt...maybe she will discover wat she has lost...maybe not...i guess that's wat life's about...full fo questions and uncertainty....that's wat make life really interesting...
Apart my sentimental self,
I started to work out alone....jogging....workout...ha...
My com is down...and it's up...and it's down and it's up again...great thanks to my kor kor William!....my cousin...i always call him kor one....he's so technologically intelligent...ha...
Actually i came to realise i have lost much trust in so many things...relationship...friendship...maybe even human trust...i dunno why...just feel that when you are in need or alone...relationship and friendship cant really be relied on...only my family...and of course myself....you start to do things yourself, more independent in a good word...or rather, losing trust in others...
People leave and go in yur lifes...i guess you probably heard the...leave footprints in your heart thingy...well i m currently losing my good friend melissa who is going overseas lar..i wish her all the best...definately miss her...she is so nice...few people would be able to be that lar...and she is so swt...haix....take great care k......
People grow up...so do i....as i keep growing, emotionally and mentally...i have become stonger...seeing things more matured...but i know i traded my childhood innocence for it...i really dun want to...but i guess...some how...the world forced me to do so....i guess i can no longer smile innocently...
Bless the world...
土曜日, 2月 05, 2005
My Com went down for like 3-4 weeks lar...so no com and internet to use until now...haix...oh ya...so how's life for everyone...
Commissioned on the 23rd of Jan...i go upload photos lar...wait...
Went for a week of some ADJUNCT couse...
28th was my comms ball...
Today just finished experiencing a week of life at OETI...
This is my life in short now lar...
Boring...
Ok...i kind of became more pessimistic leh lar...my temper also increase le...less tolerating and more impatient...i hate myself for that...
I met up with SIYING!...ha...i miss her so so so much...she still look as beautiful as in the past...and still as deep thinking and stubborn girl...tough character...but then, i know she has a very kind and swt heart...ha...
I met MEL too...asked her out for a meet up...she look more matured now...ha...she is lar...i guess everyone is lar...everybody thinks differently leh...we have groan up....i miss her so much too...she is still as bai chi lar...but still as nice and swt girl...
So when the month left, i will hav two good friends flying South...leaving on a jetplane...haix...