It's all in the act.

Welcome to My Life

Do you know me?
Are you sure you know me?
I dun even know myself...

金曜日, 1月 27, 2006

Talented work by Miss Teoh...i took it with my digi cam...guess u figured out my photo taking skills sucks...haha

Thanks for the sketch of my lonely mercury...

水曜日, 1月 25, 2006

Been issued the ultimate leave eating plan by the s3 branch in my battalion...ACCT training until 2nd of March...wat the hell...it's like i have to clear leave...come back ACCT then go out again...fcuk man....

Then i still need to do lesson plans...2 more DO duty...maybe will sway sway forced to run one more ARR training...hey i not even running ARR lor...ask me train along....sian diao...waste my youth...

And tmr i shall proceed to camp for my INITIATION...after being posted nearly a year into the battalion....how stupid is that....argh...

I dun care...ORD lor...

日曜日, 1月 22, 2006

Heya...listen to the new song on my blog...izzit it nice and soothing...with a touch of melancholy and sadness...
I love this kind of blues jazzy ones....
This is EMI FUJITA's newest album REMBRANT SKY's song
called TEN MILLION TEARS...the lyrics also quite nice...haha...cant find the full lyrics, but the chorus goes something like this:

Ten million tears
I'd cry ten miliion tears for one more day with you
Tender chains surround my heart
Till we're no longer apart
Till that moment, I'll cry ten million tears

No no no....i m not sad...i just tot it's nice.....yup....and it fits wat i have felt before....so ya...when i get the full lyrics, i will post it again...cheers...

日曜日, 1月 15, 2006

Think most people will know the popular blogger xiaxue ,actually i didnt really think much of her, as in why is she famous, so recently, i had nothing to do, so i went to take a peek at her writting and realise, it's actually her comical and direct singlish writting style that made reading there interesting...pls lar...think abt it, at least she's really straightforward, dare to say, not like most people...and she's true...lian means lian, dun need act act like many people in the society...I HATE HYPHOCRITICS...

Anyway, the point is that she suddenly discussed this issue that guys nowadays are getting more wimpy...they do not dare to stand out for their girlfriend when their girl's in danger...like ganna bullied...

I TOTALLY agree...it's like u see alot of wimpy people around...have we lost the subconscious sense of protection for our love ones?

Some people say want fighting cannot resolve problem...u know like the 水浒传, those that stand up to justice, i ALWAYS respected them...they dare to do something, not for personal heroic gain, but to stand up for the people being bullied...those wimpy ones will be the those sitting by the road side crying for their love ones killed or taken away as slaves...
Maybe in the end they became outridders, rebels, whatever....but they were HEROS...HEROS of the people...those that when they are dead, the people of the world cried for them one...

I never wanted to be a hero, but if i need to choose, i would definately stand up for my girlfriend...someone bully her, one chop to the adam's apple...big size or not...follow by one kick to the groin sure down one...If not i Taewando DAN 1 and learn wushu so long for fcuk...

That's why i was thinking why yan lian's new boyfriend would let those people in hall to bully her...i mean, it's kidding lar...but she dun like lor...can he just have more guts to stand up and protect her or not?...Piss me off lor...wimp....if i am around, i wouldnt let anyone touch her one lor...

Want touch her? KILL ME FIRST...

金曜日, 1月 13, 2006

THE FOLLOWING POST MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR ALL

Today, i am finally 21!...haha...i can vote in the next election, and can also watch R21 files le...haha...

I never celebrate birthday, and dun necessary make efforts to make the day different...but i always take the chance to think back about my life...

I dunno since when this phrase was introduced to me:
"When u were born, you were crying and everyone around u was smiling. Live life to the fullest, so that when u are gone, you will be smiling and everyone around u was crying."

Since then i started thinking about who will be crying for me when i am gone, who will be missing me, who will be those that wouldnt even care about my existance and worst, who will be happy when i am gone...

I make it a point to always treat my friends with total trust, sincerity and confidence...cause i believe that every effort made would be fruitfully rewarded for it, for wat they say, 好心有好报.

But through the year, i came to realise that i was just a small boy living in a dark world...a facade society...

Details should be spared, for today marks a great occasion, but wat i can said is that i realise how accquiance like people can be...u treat them like a close friend but do they?

In the end, through trials of time, bonds are just broken and friendship forged are in fact as weak as can be...reliance on friendship to pull u through your rainy days are just in fact, words of appreciation with much hypocricy....who can really brave the storm and sea for a friend in need?

So he decided that he no longer wants to be a good guy to anyone, cause he doesn't believe in 好人有好报了...好人也只会被人欺负.

At the end of the day, this little boy woke up from his sweet dream...and through all the hurt and pain, he knew that reliance on friendship would only make him weaker...u can only count on yourself. Did i hear family and loved ones? Yes, but from wat i feels, only slightly.

I would never be able to know the answer to my first question...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF

火曜日, 1月 10, 2006

爱情橱窗

This is so meaningful lar...i like all the five short phrases...really...especially the last one...MUST TAKE A LOOK...

QUOTE：
在爱情里学会最艰难的功课：等待

Ya...then got a lot of stuff...i didnt get a chance to write all down lar...watch urself lar...

日曜日, 1月 08, 2006

News report that during the Christmas countdown, alot of people got molested and some people misused those aerosol sprays, with stupid cases of people spraying into peoples' eyes and then grope them...and then this dunno where popular blogger calls for a peition to ban the sale of aerosol spray....

The funny thing is how stupid can some people get...just because of this start to call for a ban? I mean if it's for a better cause, like global warming, i would agree lar...but this kind? I mean it's just like oh, someone was stabbed to death by robbers using a knife...therefore someone call for a ban of knifes in singapore? Tell me if it is logical...and like got 2000 plus people supporting it lar...pls lar...for goodness sake...

But i must say, the "aerosol spray on the eye and grope" method is damn desperate and low level lar...at town some more...wa lao...damn skilled lar...how to do this kind of thing and no one caught them? Are the rest of the people around damn indifferent and blind?

I was thinking those large crowd molest cases are always so common lar...happens everywhere lor...clubs, disco...everywhere wat...like u and i dunno like that...as in u go such things cannot avoid one lor...as in u cant tell if the person who touched u is accidentally or not wat...and even if it's purposely, u may not be able to find out who izzit wat...

Most people are said that those molest cases are done by foreign workers, some say that the workers are looking at them or targeting them....one lady even said in the news report that she need to cover her chest cause she felt she was being looked at....come on lar...u go everywhere also got people look wat...u come out sure got people look at one wat...and also depends on how u wear wat...wear those chemical defence suit lor...then no one will look at u...

Some say those aerosol sprays make them breathless, and alot of people pushing the barricade blahblahblah...

So wat's the moral of the story?

STAY AT HOME AND SLEEP LAR...

可惜不是你

歌手：梁静茹
专辑：丝路

这一刻突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据
差一点骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景
多希望也有星光的投影
努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

土曜日, 1月 07, 2006

I went back to school to see see look look today...the energy level of the grand grand grand juniors are like negative lar....dead people floating around...and their standard are quite low...and their attitude is simply atrocious...ok maybe not all of them lar...but when u hear the chairman talk to us is like pissing me off lar...

Firstly he ask if we (the seniors around) got any 训导, like we wanting to scold them like that

When i ask him wat he think of the performance he say 不错, but the standard is quite low lor...

Then he say that orientation this kind of performance nevermind one lar...they recycle some previous performance...

I asked if he thinks people will be interested in their performance or not, he told me all wushu performance kind of similar........

Freaking hell...firstly, not being humble to seniors is WRONG, esp in our association, which is like very 尊师重道 one...

Secondly, not doing ur best in whatever u do is wrong...u can be good all your life...one mistake would ruin u...the point is that i agree orientation is a smaller performance, but it's this kind that can play with wat...creative ideas?...i remember we were playing around with the performance with lor...got chance they dun want use...

And they are freakin slow and lazy...their training pace is like 飞机跑道 lar...totally flat...no interesting thing at all...and they are not willing to learn, not willing to admit mistake and not willing to change...the will just bring down our 武术 reputation...

Keming, Ming Jian and Yiren go back teach, they are like all not controlling kind lar...wouldnt have any effects lar...young people like that....wat is the world coming to...i hope they can change their attitude lar....if not, i will sadly just see HC 武术's downfall lor...and i ensure that lar, with this kind of attitude...教练 should just scold them...argh......

nice guy huh...SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING...

I says:
14th ah? u want give me after my birthday ah?
I says:
anything lor....
She says:
yeah... cos i thought u wanto spend some time alone
She says:
or anyway u want on ur bday
I says:
spend sometime alone? haha....

that's my sad case conversation...

Actually do u know that only want to spend it quietly with U...
But i am just scared that if i saw u again, i wouldnt be able to let u go...that's why i said i want to sleep on my birthday...
Especially on my birthday...when i never got to celebrate it with u...only until we broke up...
And u even made something for me....why are u trying to be so nice to me now when i am trying to forget u....ARGHHH.....cant u just ignore me and go to your boyfriend....maybe i will forget that u are in someone else's arms now....

CAN SOMEONE UNDERSTAND MY PAIN....

Ya...but i dun need compassion and pity...if u are trying to have that for me, pls dial 1900 112 8888 for the REN CI HOSPITAL to help those needy...

水曜日, 1月 04, 2006

I never tot those big words like "resolution" would be useful...thats why i never really set those stuff...
But targets are always useful lar...

Anyway, i just hope to be able to help more people...cheer up more people and make more people smile, touched more people this year...most of all, i hope that everyone around me is safe and healthy always....

Sounds damn noble rite...haha...smlj lor..haha...

Ha...i go study my JAP le...jya manta...

The Adventures Of Pudding!!
haha...this is quite a cute singaporean comic...ha...worth a look.

火曜日, 1月 03, 2006

i forgot wat i going to say...
Oh ya.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TERENCE....21 le....remember our agreement k...after my birthday one...u buy tickets hor....haha....

Anyway, i tot Janice was damn sweet...i am so freakin jealous....i think i must get someone as swt as her...the next girl as swt as her one will be my FIRST LOVE...but that's a different case le...really...Janice is my 好朋友...My first love is my 遗憾...so...different case lar...well, now she's living fine...great...dun talk abt her...damn sad...argh...

Suddenly no mood le....

Was searching for flights ticket price online....

Shall sleep instead...