Welcome to My Life
Do you know me?Are you sure you know me?
I dun even know myself...
金曜日, 1月 13, 2006
THE FOLLOWING POST MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR ALLToday, i am finally 21!...haha...i can vote in the next election, and can also watch R21 files le...haha...
I never celebrate birthday, and dun necessary make efforts to make the day different...but i always take the chance to think back about my life...
I dunno since when this phrase was introduced to me:
"When u were born, you were crying and everyone around u was smiling. Live life to the fullest, so that when u are gone, you will be smiling and everyone around u was crying."
Since then i started thinking about who will be crying for me when i am gone, who will be missing me, who will be those that wouldnt even care about my existance and worst, who will be happy when i am gone...
I make it a point to always treat my friends with total trust, sincerity and confidence...cause i believe that every effort made would be fruitfully rewarded for it, for wat they say, 好心有好报.
But through the year, i came to realise that i was just a small boy living in a dark world...a facade society...
Details should be spared, for today marks a great occasion, but wat i can said is that i realise how accquiance like people can be...u treat them like a close friend but do they?
In the end, through trials of time, bonds are just broken and friendship forged are in fact as weak as can be...reliance on friendship to pull u through your rainy days are just in fact, words of appreciation with much hypocricy....who can really brave the storm and sea for a friend in need?
So he decided that he no longer wants to be a good guy to anyone, cause he doesn't believe in 好人有好报了...好人也只会被人欺负.
At the end of the day, this little boy woke up from his sweet dream...and through all the hurt and pain, he knew that reliance on friendship would only make him weaker...u can only count on yourself. Did i hear family and loved ones? Yes, but from wat i feels, only slightly.
I would never be able to know the answer to my first question...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF