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土曜日, 5月 27, 2006
This is from Joan's blog:"A Temporary Farewell
Shu Fang has left us for a better place. She died in her sleep last night. We will remember fondly as the fighter who never gave up, until we meet again."
Somehow i got to know about her legacy.
From the newspaper, from my xiao mei michelle's blog, and finally from my dear ming zhen. Ming Zhen's boyfriend is joan's brother.
I dunno...reading her blog just suddenly made me so so so sad...i dun even care if i know her personally...looking at the photos before she was sick, until she was slowly affected by her illness. Through all the hard times, she was brave and optimistic...very strong...very very strong...and she cherished her life and every moment of time...i remember the part i saw from michelle's blog about joan
"Last night, I didn't sleep very well. My heart rate was very high and I could keep hearing my heart beating in my ears. I kept sweating and my limbs were trembling in although my room is air-conditioned. This morning I woke up, initially in a bad mood. But suddenly, the holy spirit filled me and I came to realise how beautiful God's kingdom is. There is no pain, no suffering, no hunger, no tears, only eternal life at the feet of our Lord, Jesus. How wonderful is that! I realised that I shouldn't fear death. Even though I know it's going to be a very painful and tough way to die but if it can bring to the lord, it is worth it. If the lord loves me so much that he wants me to be with him sooner and suffer no more, I should feel blessed! But that doesn't mean I'm giving up on myself, as long as the lord hasn't called me home yet, I will try my best to live life to the fullest. Lord, I thank you no matter what happens and I pray for your strength to accept all that happens. Amen."
She is such a matured girl...I feel that i am so weak and useless compared to her strengths...her everything...
It's so sad seeing such a thing happen...why do such things happen in the world...maybe that's why i never believed in "好心友好报" this thing...such a terrible thing happened to such a nice girl...and there are people would do not cherish their lives...committing suicide, taking drugs or committin evil deeds....THE WORLD IS SO SO SO SO SO SO UNFAIR...
I AM pessimistic in nature...cause the world is such an unhappy place...
And i bet there are tons of other nice people suffering in the world, just unheard of...but they not hearing abn=out them doesnt mean that they do not exist...
So aren't u feeling the need to reflect on how u have lived UR life and stand up to help other people suffering?
Do u understand my frustration?
Joan...pls rest in peace now, for i believe ur strength and courage will live on forever...