Do you know me?
Are you sure you know me?
I dun even know myself...

I was trying to read the Business Law article, which was published in some cheemalogy language that has been proven by me to have highly hypnotic powers that was luring me to sound sleep...and i decided to throw it aside for now to blog...

Was going through the NBS FOC video, which was like super emotional luring and touching lar...i miss those days so so so so so much...super high, super fun, super crazy...i never thought camp could be so much fun lar...maybe i might just join in the NBS FOC committee...the previous committee made so much effort lar...hope i can do the same...but still in consideration...

Anyway, the seniors made a decision to put Vincent as the next CGL for K CLAN next year. My first reaction was this sudden void of feeling...like dunno wat i should feel...obviously I AM NOT JEALOUS...but it's just that i always thought that the CGL was the Best Freshie...and it turned out that they didn't offered me. Either some politically strong seniors DUN like me, which was no big deal to me, someone who doesn't give a damn to that, and experienced similar things before, OR the fact that, they just didn't think i was capable.

It turned out the same way before in the past but it was no big deal, cause in the end, the just tot that my first impression was being crazy and fun loving, and cannot be serious...until they saw how much effort i put in for things i am concern about, how serious i can be...that's when they realise they are wrong and will feel guilty about it...and capability is a definate thing rite...haha...

Anyway, i dun blame them lar...impressions are like the mist at the opening stage...once the mist is over, and they get to know u better, they will understand...ALTHOUGH i hate to be misunderstood and wrong, some people are just incapable of seeing the greater side of things...u can't blame them...

I am starting to get sarcastic...shall stop here...where ever is the case, the answer is still a mystery...i wish someone would explain the true reasoning to me...i hate to be in the dark...hall politics...haix...

Anyway, vincent's a good choice, but i guess, he's just not inspiring high kind of character...we shall see how...he offered me to be his GL...

Just that there is this concern that CGL and ACGL should be the best...if it turns out that the CGL and ACGL is uninspiring, i guess i wouldnt do anything...because it's their show...really...not to overwrite the top authority...ha...military constrain...maybe that's why i was an army officer...
, i decided to accept lar...

No specific reason, just another good friend involved into this. I think she probably wouldnt have thought of anything i would have felt lar...she's already like super stressed out these days
I just hope that i wouldnt feel that the CGL is uncapable or that i wouldnt want to do anything because the CGL has not been involving himself...bacause i know a friendship is concern...truely, vincent has been a friend to me, at least he was the only guy in hall camp that could go alittle crazy like me...

I was still wondering if i should accept...when Elizabeth asked me if i were to be a GL, and she had already agreed, juggling studies and the pageant, which i am like really worried for her...plus, she's those slow kind of character in life....OH IT WAS SAD...haha...

Then i wanted to cheer her up and at the same time look for a friend which i can comfortably trust and talk to and was in the K clan loop...then step into the room, there was YUEH SIANG...abit paiseh lar for me...like disturbing them...that moment, i just wanted to get out of the place...alittle jealous, like a good friend's attention stolen from you...in the end, i was floating online to talk to GUOWEI when LAN PEI was there and i talked to her instead...she's a good friend...i think the two of them would be my favourite seniors...politically clean worthy friends...

Better than those that always smoke, drink and dunno why ask u to their room to drink and hang out do nothing...once, twice still ok, but like every night????
They are like people who are given chances in life just dunno how to cherish their chances...haix...until they lost it, then they regret it...actually, i hate these people...some people dun even have a chance to study lar...yet u have the chance, yet void ur chance away...And i dun understand why some people still couldn't get it lar...

Studying is one thing, wasting your life is another. Friends would know i am not a like damn pia kind, if not i would probably be in LSE now. But i know my limits. When i play hard, i know i need to study hard too...if not, i have only sorry to say for myself...which i HATE to self pity...

Shouldn't badmouth others...Elizabeth got my blog add...Liz if u read this...just dun tell others...and DO NOT PASS MY BLOG ADDRESS OK...

and to vincent's case, i guess, i will just see how this game of politics goes.