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Do you know me?Are you sure you know me?
I dun even know myself...
水曜日, 11月 29, 2006
EXAMS ARE OUT.GAMES ARE IN.
CRAZINESS.
木曜日, 11月 23, 2006
ARGH...i didn't study enoughy for FM lar...although it's not difficult, i dun think i can score much on it....zzz...never do one 3 marks part and did wrongly for the NPV...wa lao...why why why!!!!ZZZ....so tired, not enough time to stuudy fm, all because i was lazy and didn't study after my maths on tuesday, then i had to mug till 3.30am before the test....MCQ seems so tricky lar....i suck....stupid boy lor...zzz..
OK, the 2nd month we went to eat Billy Bombers, damn alot of fries...i fast from fries for a week le...and it's not nice lor...who was the one who told me billy bombers not bad one...zzz...
One last paper till the end of my fight to my 4.5 GPA.
GAMBATE!
土曜日, 11月 18, 2006
I am damn slow in my progress of study. TWO MORE DAYS TO ACCOUNTING...LIXIANG WAKE UP....WAKE UP!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need to settle down, find my spirit to study. I promise to kick start everything, no more anime, movie, blah blah. Just plain sharping of my knowledge for my target of all As in exam.
MUST SCORE. ITS NOT A TARGET.
Anyway, just now someone just said something which was super hurtful to me. How would you feel if someone you love totally doubt your trust in the whole relationship. I understand it's because she was hurt by some bastard before who bullied her, but dun compare him to me. That's insulting, and i dun like to be compared.
I was so disappointed, you wouldnt imagine how i felt, because we are only one month towards two months together and she doubt me now...
I dunno how to explain that feeling...it's like killing me with one death blow. I was so sad, and then she apologised, but with the legendary "I said sorry le wat, wat else you want me to do?"
It's like the most irritating thing that helps in nothing, but get things worst.
AN ADVICE TO EVERYONE, NEVER USE THIS AT SOMEONE YOU CARE, ITS STUPID AND HURTFUL.
Can you imagine how pissing it's that?
But dun worry, next time i am going to use it at her le lor....hahaha...
I felt better when she argued about how she wanted to treasure our relationship.
But i need more confidence and understanding from her.
Meowmeow, ur boyfriend probably can't take another more of such thing lar..so pls dun do it again k.
=(
日曜日, 11月 12, 2006
I went to the wake on friday...the mood there was really strange...people gathering around...biyun and weiliang was saying...it's a bad reason for everyone to gather...I was sad, but i didn't cry. Because i wasn't really close to Bowu Shi Xiong. We saw Jia Rong went somewhere to cry with Ting Sheng and Kaiyu accompaning her. Weiliang told me, it's like that, he was like that on the first day went he came too. How many years have they known each other and trained under Bowu Shi Xiong le...
No one cried on our table.
Jiao Lian came to talk to us. I shall skip the staff he said, but generally, he told us to not feel sad for Bowu Shi Xiong. That's the least we could do for him.
We sat around for a while till 10.30 plus. Then Teresa decided to leave. So the rest of us wanted to leave with her.
Then Jiao Lian told us to gather for a bow before Bowu Shi Xiong. It was a formal bow from the whole wu xuan. After the bow i felt so so so so so sad. I looked at yi ren, and i asked "You not sad meh?"
He said "I dunno how to say. We just trained together last Saturday." Then i could see tears in his eyes.
That moment i felt so so so sad also...my eyes just couldn't really hold back. Especially in front of Bowu Shi Xiong's picture. Then as i walked towards Jiao Lian to bid him good bye, i he saw that i couldn't hold back le, then asked me to be strong.
I think i was probably the saddest from my HC batch. I knew Bowu shi xiong since so young from Sec 1 or 2 contrary to the rest of them. I remembered, Xiang Qi, Kia Yue, Ting Shen and Bowu. Bowu was the friendiest and nicest of them all..the grand seniors.
I went out, controlled myself and walked away. Really really tried not to think. But each time i remembered that bow, it was like my eyes just turned red.
Lucky i was alone after yl got down at city hall..i just wanted to have some peace to cool down and walked slowly alone home.
Cat msg me to asked if i was alright, i said i am.
As usual, i never liked to tell people that i am sad.
Her silly msg was quite funny "Anyone would be more or less affected by it"...haha..deh...I told her i just badly needed a hug now. She knew that i wasn't feeling very well and tried to cheer me up.
I was hoping she would be around. Then i rather she's not around to see me sad.
Nvm that part. At the end of the day, i realise how fragile life can really be. I feel even more sad playing this song from Beyond and typing this.
Treasure the people around you. Seriously, you dunno when they will not be around you anymore. =(
BEYOND
海阔天空
今天我寒夜里看雪飘过
怀著冷却了的心窝飘远方
风雨里追赶
雾里分不清影踪
天空海阔你与我
可会变(谁没在变)
多少次迎著冷眼与嘲笑
从没有放弃过心中的理想
一刹那恍惚
若有所失的感觉
不知不觉已变淡
心里爱(谁明白我)
原谅我这一生不羁放纵爱自由
也会怕有一天会跌倒
被弃了理想谁人都可以
那会怕有一天只你共我
仍然自由自我
永远高唱我歌
走遍千里
海阔天空
今天我寒夜里看雪飘过
怀著冷却了的心窝飘远方
风雨里追赶
雾里分不清影踪
天空海阔你与我
可会变(谁没在变)
多少次迎著冷眼与嘲笑
从没有放弃过心中的理想
一刹那恍惚
若有所失的感觉
不知不觉已变淡
心里爱(谁明白我)
原谅我这一生不羁放纵爱自由
也会怕有一天会跌倒
被弃了理想谁人都可以
那会怕有一天只你共我
仍然自由自我
永远高唱我歌
走遍千里
水曜日, 11月 08, 2006
This post is to remember Bo Wu Shi Xiong.He is one smiling nice guy to all of us. I dunno what happen or how it happen, but i lost a good senior, which i feel really sad....
Ming Jian....are u reading this?
木曜日, 11月 02, 2006
TIRED TIRED TIRED...I am so lazy lar...keep playing game and like studying damn slowly...wa lao...
ONG LIXANG, where is your motivation to push on...where is your spirit to score....
I seriously need to buck up lar...no more game, seriously...it's a super big waste of my time and energy.
I need to focus back into the big picture. Find back my aim to score in my exams, first class honours, dean's list....blah blah...zzz...
FOCUS. STUDY. NO MORE GAME. LESS SLEEP.
TIRED TIRED TIRED...