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日曜日, 11月 12, 2006
I went to the wake on friday...the mood there was really strange...people gathering around...biyun and weiliang was saying...it's a bad reason for everyone to gather...I was sad, but i didn't cry. Because i wasn't really close to Bowu Shi Xiong. We saw Jia Rong went somewhere to cry with Ting Sheng and Kaiyu accompaning her. Weiliang told me, it's like that, he was like that on the first day went he came too. How many years have they known each other and trained under Bowu Shi Xiong le...
No one cried on our table.
Jiao Lian came to talk to us. I shall skip the staff he said, but generally, he told us to not feel sad for Bowu Shi Xiong. That's the least we could do for him.
We sat around for a while till 10.30 plus. Then Teresa decided to leave. So the rest of us wanted to leave with her.
Then Jiao Lian told us to gather for a bow before Bowu Shi Xiong. It was a formal bow from the whole wu xuan. After the bow i felt so so so so so sad. I looked at yi ren, and i asked "You not sad meh?"
He said "I dunno how to say. We just trained together last Saturday." Then i could see tears in his eyes.
That moment i felt so so so sad also...my eyes just couldn't really hold back. Especially in front of Bowu Shi Xiong's picture. Then as i walked towards Jiao Lian to bid him good bye, i he saw that i couldn't hold back le, then asked me to be strong.
I think i was probably the saddest from my HC batch. I knew Bowu shi xiong since so young from Sec 1 or 2 contrary to the rest of them. I remembered, Xiang Qi, Kia Yue, Ting Shen and Bowu. Bowu was the friendiest and nicest of them all..the grand seniors.
I went out, controlled myself and walked away. Really really tried not to think. But each time i remembered that bow, it was like my eyes just turned red.
Lucky i was alone after yl got down at city hall..i just wanted to have some peace to cool down and walked slowly alone home.
Cat msg me to asked if i was alright, i said i am.
As usual, i never liked to tell people that i am sad.
Her silly msg was quite funny "Anyone would be more or less affected by it"...haha..deh...I told her i just badly needed a hug now. She knew that i wasn't feeling very well and tried to cheer me up.
I was hoping she would be around. Then i rather she's not around to see me sad.
Nvm that part. At the end of the day, i realise how fragile life can really be. I feel even more sad playing this song from Beyond and typing this.
Treasure the people around you. Seriously, you dunno when they will not be around you anymore. =(