Welcome to My Life
Do you know me?Are you sure you know me?
I dun even know myself...
土曜日, 11月 24, 2007
Taking a break from my 3rd towards the last paper on the 29th...Basically nearly everyone from Group A has completed exams other than the double specs people, which i believe 29th is the latest for double spec people. Even the BnF people are ending their exams on the 28th...damn unfair lar...they should be the latest...biggest cohort anyway...
Anyway, was watching American Idol just now...dunno season wat already lar...but their vocals are just super power...the passion in thier songs are really quite strong...i mean u can hear their emotions...especially Jennifer Lopez(Guest Star)...damn zai sia...she was singing this latin song...damn zai and nice although i dun understand a word...lol...
Anyway, I am having blank tots now...as in I wanted to type about something and I suddenly lost interest in it....Oh well...the enigmatic nature of me.
I was just wondering that people can become at a time so passionate and emotional about something, and yet, suddenly numb and daze...how susceptible is our human nature...so easily defeated by emotions...in fact, humans are powered by emotions, drived by emotions and ruled by them. Emotions are so powerful that they can change ur character, ur mindset, ur believes. Yet, we can never live without them.
Without them, there would be no, sadness, anger, happiness, touched...every single feeling of being alive...how ironical it is...
Anyway, I dun even know wat i wanna do after exams...when before exams, everyone was just saying "let's.....after exam" and all the .... just cant come into my mind...dunno why, it's not a joyous feeling, but rather like abit of lost and distaught. Maybe I have been melancholic for such a long long time that I already grew used to being more depressed and sad, that the joyous part of me was just very superficial...
Well this is life. U cant evpect me to be happy after all the emotional roller coaster rides i have been through all my life. A part of me looks back to the truthful and joyous self that I was once. A part of me despised me for being extremely naivc and childish to be so. A part of me is just numb.
Anyway, I just heard this new fish leong's song...super nice...her song's always damn meaningful...dunno why...it's called C'est la vie...sometimes lyrics tend to tell about of my life story, thats why i love her songs alot.
我会在你的记忆
看到我自己
看到了结局
爱在错过后更珍惜。
爱在遗憾里更清晰。