Do you know me?
Are you sure you know me?
I dun even know myself...

There's nothing worst than a batch of stupid immature girls going clubbing with some teammate who takes advantage of them.

Fcuk man.

Hold me or i will beat him up for sure.
No one take advantage of their own friend.
No excuses of cannot control.

Damn OFF. Damn PISSED.

Tell me am I wrong to be protective of my friends.
I would punch someone who tries to take advantage of our own people.
But now tell me how to handle one of our own who took advantage of our own people.

Disappointing. TOTALLY.

Champions are only champions when they can hold their pride and integrity high.

I use to hate clubbing.
Now I fcuking hell hate clubbing for nuts.

I love the melancholic feeling in this blogskin man..haha...=P
It has a tinge of sadness and helplessness mix...great skin made. Hope no more of the template errors

Anyway, I am damn proud of myself for like enhancing so much on the ppt slides for my risk presentation..haha...all the new analysis and stuff...=)

Finally!!!
Some photos of Hall 8 Royals Cheerleaders, Champion of Inter-Hall Opening 07/08!!!

The Team

The Babes

The Hunks

Serious Pose before we left for the day

Tears and Joys of Elation

Our Incoming Captain Chong Beng and Co-Captains Xue Ling and Mei Hui

Good luck for the next year guys, remember to defend our hard earned title!

Jordin Sparks - Tatoo

Oooh... Oooh... Ohhh..
No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
My head in the fire,
Sooner or later, I get what i'm asking for
No matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed.

The truth is a stranger
My soul is in danger,
I gotta let my spirit be free to,
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo,
Just like a tatto, I'll always have you.

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sies.
When I look in the mirror,
Didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop

Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo, I'll always have you.

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you.
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do.

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo.
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you.

We are the CHAMPIONS!!! =P

Been having some cheerleading withdrawal syndrome...lol...but then again, i have 3 presentation next week, minor they might be, but still important...haix...no heart to get down to work.

I really missed the times doing crazy trainings and staying up real late, no matter how tiring it might be...haix..=P

Oh well, we have more performances to come. Hall 8 Royals, we are the champions.

Now to get back to my the other love dance. =)


"Dun look back got a new direction, I love you once, needed protection."

Hall 8 CHEERLEADERS, CHAMPION OF HALL OPENING 07/08!!!

In less than 14 hours time we are gonna be having the Hall Opening Cheerleading Competition.

So many days of trainings and so much effort, sweat, blood and tears all falls down to these few minutes on the mats..

Dear god, i do not pray for god strength or luck, but just the blessing from you to allow us to perform our stunts to our best ability that we can display to.

Cheerleading is a really wonderful experience. I think i would really miss the cheerleading times together.

They say its the journey, not the destination. I know. But it's time to take wat we came for tmr....the gold medal.

ARGH....I missed the first lesson on the school term.

Was supposed to have class from 830 to 1230 for BC206, but when i woke up it was like 9.30...and when i reach can A, it's already near 10. So i stuck at can A having this dilemma of going or not, thinking for like at least 10 mins whether i should go for it, seriously literally stoning and standing there like an idiot, with no one in my mindthat I can turn to for help on opinions. When i finally scroll thru the phone list on my phone to choose a name to send to after another 10 mins.

In the end, I decided not to go and I felt DAMN GUILTY when i was walking back to hall..not that cheerleading is a valid excuse, but certainly i was damn shagged as a result of it training from 8pm to 3am every day. I dunno why i m finding excuse to defend myself perhaps to make myself less guilty. It's like the ugly side of me trying to make myself feel right when my world is seriously upside down and i m not ok.

At the end of the day, i guess i am still not as strong i should have been. Not as decisive. Not as determined. Not as unyielding. Not as indifferent.

I need to be stronger in everyway.

Also,
NO MORE OVERSLEEPING OF LESSONS AND MISSING LESSONS.

Never Forget
Morning Musume

I'll Never Forget You
忘れないわ　あなたの事
ずっとそばにいたいけど
ねぇ仕方ないよね
ああ　泣き出しそう

出会った日にカンパイだね
あの頃よりも髪がのびた事
あなた知ってた？

出会ったのは偶然なの？
だからサヨナラさえも偶然なの

東京で見る星も
ふるさとでの星も
同じだと教えてくれた

I'll Never Forget You
忘れないわ　あなたの事
ずっとそばにいたいけど
ねぇ仕方ないよね
ああ　泣き出しそう

You'll Never Forget Me
忘れないで　あたしの事
もっとそばにいたいけど
もう旅立つ時間
ああ　泣き出しそう

記憶なんて単純だね
だから悲しみさえも思い出だね

きっとまた逢えるよね
きっと笑い合えるね
今度出会うときは必然

Na Na Na Na…

I'll Never Forget You
忘れないわ　あなたの事
ずっとそばにいたいけど
ねぇ仕方ないよね

You'll Never Forget Me
忘れないで　あたしの事
もっとそばにいたいけど
もう旅立つ時間
ああ　泣き出しそう

ER xing gave me a tofu cushion...damn cute...which immediately reminds me of the ever famous TOFU LINE...lol...haha...floorball with the Blizzards was damn fun and interesting man...lol...the famous tofu line that cui damn easily with tofu shots on target that was extremely weird and slow moving...lol...

Anyway, some updates on my life, 23 years old, OLD man le lar...i seem to be taking things much more easily, which implies less serious on some extent...dunno if it's good or bad. On one hand, i kind of lost my impulse drive that help me bite thru the bad times, but of course, also alot of mistakes with my actions and words. On the other hand, i became even more relaxing, calm to put it in a good way, less motivated and serious on another.

Been having cheerleading like from 8pm to 3am like everyday...super tiring...and i have this ever shag look in class these days...kind of unable to tide me thru a simple 4hr straight lessons, with my thinking skills dropping to ground zero and stone at the 3rd hour...=P

Stunts are fully linked and completed for the first time today, felt much better than the previous broken parts parts parts...at least it was really wonderful to complete it...did i mention that dance completed also? =)))

But i wouldnt be able to dance like for a week plus cause of cheerleading lar...it's really fun to dance, trust me..too bad i didn't learn it when i was much younger, only until after army than i went to Jitterbugs from Patrick's lesson, it was really fun!!!

Jing Wen asked me "U all seems to have alot of fun at dance hor" I said "Ya, when u truely like to dance, it will be very fun. When u truely and sincerely wish to dance, you would have fun and enjoy the process to learn to dance, unlike some idiot who came because of other motive and waste like everyone's time and makes a fool of himself" --> Implied target was obvious to her lar, but i really didn't care. I really hate this kind of people...go break another leg or something lar...yes, I know I'm evil. I was never good before. I dun give a damn.

I dunno how dance would turn out lar Jing Wen, it's seriously a good process than the achievements it would bring. Dun worry i would dance as long as my ankles and lower back dun give me more problems please...=(

Right now the focus is on GOLD for cheerleading...and of course my beloved ever boring tutorials...

Risk is seriously TOO boring...WHO CAME UP WITH SUCH USELESS MODULE? And i m like so bored in class waiting for sms replies, yet they are ever slow or ERXINGLY IGNORED...i think one of the lessons i would just faint from boredom...

Thank you 41 guys for the cake lar...always never fail to have cake for our brothers...lol..and thank you k clan for the cake today also =)

Lastly, my sincere apology to my xiaomei ms yeeling, for failing to send her off to US...I am damn sad lar without even a chance to eat dinner with her before she flew off cause i forgotten when she was flying off on which date in all my IH games, dance, cheerleading and stuffs...ARGH...SORRY SORRY SORRY...da ge own u a treat ok? Tell me ur address soon ya, i would write to u!! =(

As i m typing, my eyes are like a single line parallel to the table le lor...zzz...sleeping....keep me well dear god...no falling sick until end of cheerleading and dance and no further injuries...

Thank you Grace for ur present although u damn er xing refuse to sing birthday song for me with a damn off reason...

Thank you yan lian for ur ever sweet present. I will eat the cake soon ok when i recover.

Thank you all those who remembered my birthday and gave me their blessing.

Birthday means nothing to me without all you people i love. =P

I wish for great health and happiness to all those around me as my one and only birthday wish. =)

Teardrops On My Guitar lyrics
Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's damn so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
Cause he's the reason

See, it's interesting lar...notice Guan Ying's smile while watching the game

Match going on!! The one on the right is Wai Chong, haha...Fast but useless player...lol

Dun ask me why i took my own picture in the end to act cute...lol...was getting blister on my hands pushing the wheels to fast break from the games.

School reopening like in a few hours time...haix sian...seminar again!!...haix...

This sem's target is 4.75. I am going to slap this score at PEA's face man...boasting his results to be good at a marginal 4.0...my ass man this is good...pissing me off with some retarded narrow minded ego thinking. I m going to kill him with my As this sem.

I am really afraid of the distance that has unknowingly overshadowed us..tell me I am wrong...just tell i m wrong...missing you.

End of IH GAMES

Following the defeat at hockey and disappointing performances at basketball today, my IH Games for this season officially ended. Agonizing...haix...

Result is two games in Quarter Finals this year. Up from nothing last year...oh well, i mean i really hope to do better, maybe because i m a sports person, competitive nature. But it's just not really my niche. Ask then have IH Wushu lar...i sure trash the rest of the halls.

Anyway, school starting soon...like REALLY soon...i m not prepared man...HELP!!!

Will someone please stop the time for me?

ラベル: IH Games

My first post of the year.

听。
海哭的声音。
叹息着谁又背上了心却还不清醒..

Nah, it's not that depressing that it sounds, just that this song's really stuck in my head now for some reason.

Yesterday was surprisingly much more interesting than expected. I knew the floorball matches would be boring, although i still made the choice to go for it. Well, the first one was still ok, cause we were fresh. However, imagine waiting 3-5 hours to play a 15 mins match...how boring could it be listening to some off music by the DJ??? It's more irritating than fun.

Anyway, then Kevin and I dropped by Melissa's house where the 42 kids were having a get together. It was quite a warm feeling to see all of them, i dunno why. I had to drink this dunno wat shit drink to enter which i really drank. Kevin puke at the drink...it was disgusting, because of the sendiments, but it was ok lar..it just taste weird.

Then played indian poker lar, or watever u called the game, and i had to drink the king's cup, which pris filled half with vodka pear, disgusting bitter after taste. Ok, it's quite alot, i drank, around 5/8 while the guys helped me finish because they knew i had another match coming along. I got quite tipsy, although not drunk, and the amazing thing was my floorball match wasn't affected...haha...

Special thanks to kennard for chaffeuring us around to matches and back!! Thanks bro.

Although we didn't really do much, it was just a warm feeling to see all of them, i dunno why..probably it made me realise how amazing each of them are. I really didn't had any mood to celebrate or had fun, but they really brought up the festive spirit of getting together and celebrating, for having known one another in our lifes.

While yet, i ignored many of their presences just for the sake of something stupid.

Why should i really bother when it really doesn't matter no matter wat u do?
Yes, i like to remain pessimistic and melancholic and emo.
I love to think that things will be better one day but I know nothing would be changed.

I hate the feeling of being ignored on a msg and yet, u have no rights or nothing to complain about, because there's no obligation to reply. And yet u are waiting for a reply for some shit stupid reason.
No matter how much u hate my character, that's who i m, damn er xing. Someone stupid trying to make myself feel worst constantly because i cant delude myself in happy endings fairytales. I really really really cant try to pretend everything's good and positive or ignore it. Blame it on my stupid emotions. It hurts me even worst to feel that all these are really not worth it.

I am damn tired of all these shit man..damn it..I cant help but feel irritated and can do nothing about it.

I know I really let alot of sweet friends down. Too bad I can't contain wat i feel, although u know i never show my sadness.

I think it's true. "If u want something badly, u really wouldn't get it"

Enough is really enough...
To end this post, I want to give thanks and apologise to them.

Thank you god for bringing these sweet and truely lovable friends into my life.

I love them all. =)

I hope u had fun too.

ラベル: Friends or Someone Special