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金曜日, 1月 18, 2008
ARGH....I missed the first lesson on the school term.Was supposed to have class from 830 to 1230 for BC206, but when i woke up it was like 9.30...and when i reach can A, it's already near 10. So i stuck at can A having this dilemma of going or not, thinking for like at least 10 mins whether i should go for it, seriously literally stoning and standing there like an idiot, with no one in my mindthat I can turn to for help on opinions. When i finally scroll thru the phone list on my phone to choose a name to send to after another 10 mins.
In the end, I decided not to go and I felt DAMN GUILTY when i was walking back to hall..not that cheerleading is a valid excuse, but certainly i was damn shagged as a result of it training from 8pm to 3am every day. I dunno why i m finding excuse to defend myself perhaps to make myself less guilty. It's like the ugly side of me trying to make myself feel right when my world is seriously upside down and i m not ok.
At the end of the day, i guess i am still not as strong i should have been. Not as decisive. Not as determined. Not as unyielding. Not as indifferent.
I need to be stronger in everyway.
Also,
NO MORE OVERSLEEPING OF LESSONS AND MISSING LESSONS.