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火曜日, 1月 01, 2008
My first post of the year.听。
海哭的声音。
叹息着谁又背上了心却还不清醒..
Nah, it's not that depressing that it sounds, just that this song's really stuck in my head now for some reason.
Yesterday was surprisingly much more interesting than expected. I knew the floorball matches would be boring, although i still made the choice to go for it. Well, the first one was still ok, cause we were fresh. However, imagine waiting 3-5 hours to play a 15 mins match...how boring could it be listening to some off music by the DJ??? It's more irritating than fun.
Anyway, then Kevin and I dropped by Melissa's house where the 42 kids were having a get together. It was quite a warm feeling to see all of them, i dunno why. I had to drink this dunno wat shit drink to enter which i really drank. Kevin puke at the drink...it was disgusting, because of the sendiments, but it was ok lar..it just taste weird.
Then played indian poker lar, or watever u called the game, and i had to drink the king's cup, which pris filled half with vodka pear, disgusting bitter after taste. Ok, it's quite alot, i drank, around 5/8 while the guys helped me finish because they knew i had another match coming along. I got quite tipsy, although not drunk, and the amazing thing was my floorball match wasn't affected...haha...
Special thanks to kennard for chaffeuring us around to matches and back!! Thanks bro.
Although we didn't really do much, it was just a warm feeling to see all of them, i dunno why..probably it made me realise how amazing each of them are. I really didn't had any mood to celebrate or had fun, but they really brought up the festive spirit of getting together and celebrating, for having known one another in our lifes.
While yet, i ignored many of their presences just for the sake of something stupid.
Why should i really bother when it really doesn't matter no matter wat u do?
Yes, i like to remain pessimistic and melancholic and emo.
I love to think that things will be better one day but I know nothing would be changed.
I hate the feeling of being ignored on a msg and yet, u have no rights or nothing to complain about, because there's no obligation to reply. And yet u are waiting for a reply for some shit stupid reason.
No matter how much u hate my character, that's who i m, damn er xing. Someone stupid trying to make myself feel worst constantly because i cant delude myself in happy endings fairytales. I really really really cant try to pretend everything's good and positive or ignore it. Blame it on my stupid emotions. It hurts me even worst to feel that all these are really not worth it.
I am damn tired of all these shit man..damn it..I cant help but feel irritated and can do nothing about it.
I know I really let alot of sweet friends down. Too bad I can't contain wat i feel, although u know i never show my sadness.
I think it's true. "If u want something badly, u really wouldn't get it"
Enough is really enough...
To end this post, I want to give thanks and apologise to them.
Thank you god for bringing these sweet and truely lovable friends into my life.
I love them all. =)
I hope u had fun too.