Do you know me?
Are you sure you know me?
I dun even know myself...

OK, I know i am like one month after 29th of Feb late when watching the Leap Years, but surprisingly the movie theater was still half filled.

This is seriously a nice movie. Not only is the storyline interesting and good, I like the cast play, quite refreshing, and also the music was good too. Most importantly was probably the company *hint hint*...haha...=)

Anyway, the way the movie shown Singapore was like really a pretty place..well done. I was wondering if the movie would make some people suddenly start to throw paper to make wishes on top of the OCBC building...lol...u never know lor...

The show have alot of painful moments for couples man...touching, sweet but one of the worst.

The best part to me is probably the part when Li-Ann did the oh you were here also stuff to Jeremy at the Windows Cafe and she told him that she was "as happy as can be" than the next moment she turned away she started to break down and cry. It sort of gave me a dejavu feeling of sort that most people I experienced before. It's kind of really sad when u think about it, yet when u experienced it, it's not sad, cause that's too mild a word. It's more of very painful to be in self denial of your very existence to love someone. Not easy i am tellin you. Seriously, that's the most painful thing you can feel, because you would wanto be dead at that moment when it hurts so badly, your heart feel so painful and yet, you have to bleed and smile until the next moment when everything in your world falls apart.

Then also the part when KS saw Li-Ann at the cafe again and he told him he was disappointed in her, then Li-Ann cried and told KS that she knew he was very good to her, and ask him to bring her away. The next thing, Jeremy came suddenly. And Li-Ann wanted to stay. KS WAS AGONIZED MAN...that was sad.

Last the part when at the wedding dinner, KS read finished the letter and the camera zoomed onto Li Ann's eyes, that was crying in such a pleading and yet happy look (Maybe I was thinking too much) and then, the guy, Raymond (Same name as guen;s lizard), asked her to go. That's nice but there's seriously nothing he can do wat. She would wanto go anyway. And the camera also zoom onto all her friends' faces, who were really touched also...that was really nicely done on the angles and their expressions. =) Great cast acting skills.

Ok lar...stop telling everyone about the movie.

My conclusion is that most people probably find the movie nice because probably some of the scenes are part of a reflection of their life story, like yours sincerely. So sad but true, most usually experience the depressing moments but not the happy every after dancing they did after finally getting together after 12 years and meeting only 4 times? I guess everyone have a sad life story to tell in every sense. I can't say I've been thru the worst, but probably a few very memorable scars that made me stronger. I think I would have been a happier person back than. But anyway, I guess now u really treasure the people around you better, you see things in a different light, or a darker reality as I would term it.

The Leap Years is sweet, but wat are the chances of happy ever after in that kind in real life?

Ok. there's still chance to watch...so ya, dun miss it ok? =) Like the trailer says, the next leap years is 4 years away, watch it if you are free ok?

Wat the fcuk...

Being weak in my IT double spec, I usually take a longer time to absorb those programming stuff, such as VBA now...

And in order to study for quiz, I usually take the previous night to revise everthing from basic step by step everything to make sure I can deal with the quiz, at least not too cui lar...

And this is like the 3rd time le...when I never sleep to study overnight, the stupid tutor does the "....so the quiz will be shifted to next week."

IDIOT...

Wat the fcuk...make me never sleep for nothing...

Hail the new VBA pro now...my mind is full of VBA codes and stuff...=)

Was reading how the blogs of some cheerleaders feeling sad about how they are going to retire from the cheerleading scenes when they are about to graduate, it suddenly struck me that how sad that felt...

I remember, i use to feel super sad in JC2 when i knew that probably i would be missing alot of wushu trainings and friends once i graudate..the kind of passion u put in to a sport, really makes u stronger, and once without it, you feel really lost all of a sudden.

To me, cheerleading is just a new found interest. Its so much like wushu, endurance, spirit, determination, stunts and everything. Just that it involves so much more level of teamwork, while wushu many a times may be individual routine. And I can really imagine the kind of bonding between every team, just like only with 2-3 weeks, i really treasure and miss all my team mates from Aces Team B.

To them, it's probably a really really really sad path to go separate, an inevitable part of life.

Haix...I mean I have seen lots of injuries, tears, sweat, blood and accidents from cheerleading already. Maybe not alot compared to more seniors who have been around the circle for long.

My conclusion is that the efforts behind each cheerleader is always uncountable and unseen. All people see is the happy smile from them on the stage.

And some idiot even criticize when the pyramids fall.

A Cheerleader's Sad Life.
To bring a smile to the crowd, no matter how sad, how tired, how depressed you are.
Once u are on the stage with the bright uniform, you are a cheerleader.
A "Happy" cheerleader

My dear friends, give some applause to the never dying spirit of cheerleading tonight. =)

This is my beloved NTU ACES TEAM B

This is with our Manager,Coach,Music Man and Bao Ga Liao Wei Cheng

This is the NTU ACES BIG FAMILY, with some judges

Finally, me and Xiulu, the contributor of these pretty photos. Thanks Babe. =)

Cheering and Smiling Despite Everything.

NTU Aces is just dominating today @ Cheerobics 2008. Senior team got the champion with all their hard work and a clean routine at 254 points, super high compared to 2nd at 220.5 KR Steppers.

I was so freaking touched when they completed the routine flawless that my eyes were red lar..stupid Kai bin caught me...zzzz, cause they were having lots of mistakes just the morning prior to the stunts and we have seen all their sweat, blood and tears so many times already...I feel the urge to win for them...it's not how good u are at it, but how bad you really want to win.

And they did it.

They seriously show the rest why they are Team Singapore Cheerleaders.

And we did it too.

With only like 3-4 weeks of training (some not even official), Aces Team B clinched 3rd place, just 0.5 behind 2nd placing. Abit frustrating, but then again, we are out to have fun and experience, and this is a good win. We had a clean routine too, just not as flawless cause some trumbling when wrong and the 270 was pretty off timing.

Cheerobics process was super busy, but I have to admit, it has been a really fun process and really truly a great great experience. I never really had a group sports before, in wushu group displays are for neatness and sharpness, in basketball it is about communication, but cheerleading is about reliance. Total reliance on one another to bring out the best in the team. We fail as a team, and we win as a team.

Well done Team A senior team! I am super proud of u guys and girls.

I realise that men are actually evil and violent by nature..seriously. I dun understand how can some people believe humans are kind by nature...

Anyway, screw all the kind and nice image u wanto have lar..it's not like it's even worth a shit in your life..it's ok to be not appreciated but it's not ok to be lied upon and carried away by a ray of hope that turn out to lead u into the darkess side of your life.

In the end, when your world crumbles and fall, no one cares and gives a damn about the shit u did previously. They would just stare at you and laugh at u for being stupid and stupid and stupid...

I feel really really hurt.

It feels like someone drove a knife through me and turned it round and round in a drilling motion to kill me totally from inside out.

Tell me about the ironies of life, and currently, I am a cheerleader, trying to smile and bring live to the crowd when I myself is drained of life from within.

Hahaha...so funny rite dun you think so...the more u love someone, the more u are hurt by the one whom you least expected to hurt you.

Thank you for the present. I love it because I never dream of something like this before.

WELCOME TO MY LIFE.

U LIED.

MY HEART IS BLEEDING DRY.

Last week was pretty mad like hell.
Tax Quiz Cui, even though I studied overnight..my concepts quite weak man...haix...

Company Law and Excel part was much better. Esp thanks to my groupmate for their understanding...I really appreciate their help in completing alot of parts for me...=)

Ok, next up, two presentation on tues and thurs, plus risk project on 17th. And of course, show down at Kallang Leisure Park on Sunday - Cheerobics =) Be Praying for the best we can be in a week. =)

I am tired.
Mentally,
Physically,
Spiritually
and Emotionally.

Life's such an amazing thing.
The more u want something, the more u dun get it.
The more u are afraid of losing it, the more u will lose it.
Tell me if this is all just a game of life played by god while we are just pawns on his chess set.

Thank you to the girl who's been with me thru all these emotional roller coaster rides, and never fail to warm my heart with her sweet messages and two type of easily immitated smile by me with her silver bag and white jacket always...haha...I couldnt have recovered in time without u by my side all these times. =)

The Veronicas - Cry

All my life you've had an opinion
Doing things for all the wrong reasons
But not today

Don't you know I think for myself
I get on fine without anybody's help
Don't care what you say yeah

I'm breaking your heart
Were breaking apart
All you do is hold me down (hold me down)
Try to make me someone I don't know
I'm not the girl you'd thought you found

What would you do if I told you
You can't control my life
What would you say
If I left today with no regrets and no goodbye
What would you do if I told you
There is no more you and I
What would you say if I walked away and left you there to cry

I don't know what's coming over you
Or how we fell apart
I tried so hard but I don't believe in you
You're not the guy I thought I knew

What would you do if I told you
You can't control my life
And what would you say
If I left today with no regrets and no goodbye
What would you do if I told you
There is no more you and I
What would you say if I walked away and left you there to cry

What would you say if I said to you just go ahead and cry

Oh my god...DAMN TERRIBLE WEEK FOR ME...

Today is monday. I have Cheerleading on Wed, Fri, Sat and Sun for this week. (Wed, Fri from 1830-0000, Sat, Sun --> Full day)

Wed there is Hall Event, JCRC must help out lar.

Friday BC206 Project due @ 1700, Company Law Assignment due @ 1200. PLUS supposed to go for Nina's 21st Birthday Party

Sat there's Tax Quiz @ 0900

Sun supposed to have JCRC Malacca Trip

Next week Risk project will be due.

Cheerleading continue to train like hell from tue everyday till friday Cheerobics on the 14th.

Plus Financial Year closes on the 14th...and I have to clear all claims by then..

I am totally screwed up now in terms of strength, energy, stamina and sleep

Worst still, I m really not feeling emotional strong NOW...


I finally realise what do people means when ur world just all falls apart..Now I am like totally mentally, physically and also emotionally drained.

And worst of all, the instant soup from Nanyang Mart wat Hearty Chicken SUCKS to the core, and I when I decided to cook hard boil egg instead, I scalded my fingers....and when I peeled open the eggs, the eggs were still not soft boiled only...WTF...


Wat the F**K is wrong with my life or me lar......ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I remember Terence once told Ming Zhen, if the world didn't SUCK, we would be floating around without gravity.

FAP was surprisingly much better than I expected.

I am sure the actors and actresses are happy that their hardwork paid off...despite probably the many screwed up in the planning phrase which I have heard.

Anyway, good job and well done to all ya. =)


The last time. It wasn't easy, seriously. But I did it, it didnt feel as bad at the moment.

The old way 157 home from school, the familiar school, seems to trigger a sense of nostalgic in me that I yearn to be back during the good old days, when everything was simple pure and kind. There was no love, no heartaches, no misses and tots. Just plain good old days of simple joys and pleasures of stupid jokes and fun times.

When we were young, we all yearn to grow up. When we have grown up, we desire to go back into the past when we were young. The simple ironies of life, intriguing, yet nevertheless a true reflection of life. While the more things you seem to have, the most important thing always seems to be missing from your life.

Alright, I am done.

Joining NTU Aces is like something I never though I would do.

The commitment level, plus the idea of girls falling down and getting injured's like too NO NO for me, given my level of hall activities, with hall dance, cheerleading, JCRC. Not forgeting that the main purpose of NTU is to get a first class with my double specs, and I am already lagging behind in grades, tutorial and everything.

I am really afraid I would do like shit this sem. With so many projects and blur subjects like risk and tax...not forgeting my company law which I haven done anything...=(((

I am so scare that sometimes I would have panic strikes and suddenly damn gan jiong for a few minutes...haha...comical but true.

I dun think I am making a sound and reasonable decision at all.


Watever.

I am already in Aces.

Lixiang you can do it. =) You have seen worst and busier times now's just have fun cheering and dancing. =)

Wish me luck.